April 2012
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What's been happening
More nonsense rapey voices. And not being allowed to be myself.
Watched Adulthood last night and was made to laugh and smile when I did not wish too. Limbs are semi-okay - I can cross my arms and they will not twitch so much… but I can’t hold down my abdominal muscles or mouth all the time…
Was made to feel vertigo - an example would be that some one got stabbed in the film and...
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I'd like to hear of any other 2012 paranormal...
I can’t stop this silly sounding breathey-laugh. And some of my joints swing about without my will being involved.
Now my dad has developed all sorts of new mannerisms… weird exaggerated movements and more average things like toe tapping. The god-thing which speaks to me directly makes fun of it all… it’s laughing at how undeveloped my family are… they don’t...
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An erowid methoxetamine report.
http://www.erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=95441
I wish I was free. She is ignorant of mortal imprisonment like the type I have. Do the voices I hear speak truth when they say that I will be a grandly put together person? What’s left of this life is for me to see. I want everything good of course. The regulator reminds me that I am ignorant of my future. It reminds me that no one knows...
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Indra did craft 1 self for Ross to call his own.
Upon near perfection of this self within the current paradigmatic standards - Indra did make Ross tediously Ill.
“You’ll have the rest of your life to be well - so just relax” Indra did say to Ross.
Will I ever be able to say that my existence is based on my will again? And will I ever meet anyone who understands the complexity behind this whole post?
“Uncertainty is a...
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And it's funny how (ok not funny but - noticable...
The idea of the “brain” has replaced “god”. What regulates the capability and pre-program of the brain? What allows for all scientific principles and apparent happenstance? God…
People tricked into thinking they are above metaphysics with realizations of “electricity” - think again :P.
Electricity in the brain is made impossibly hard to examine properly...
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Some wordings & "math" i got thrown at me last...
A rip off existence is being anything other than Brahma-capable. Brahma is known to mean omniverse… or “absolute everything”. Once a decent standard of living is reached in a civilization of souls… each one has the power of exploration of all that has been.
Without being able to see Earth.. to see everyone’s minds as Indra (sky god or Allah (all-of) or all of...
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Legalize guns in britain (half-joke-rant) no...
More people killing themselves in spite of their creation.
Good news.
People including myself are frightened of the “potion-injection” method used by the suicide/euthanasia institution of Switzerland. It costs money… and it’s not all that custom + there lots of legal paperwork etc. Takes away the goodness behind the concept of relief from this putrid imbecilic society...
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trying to claim disability allowance benefit
The message from me - was simply that I’m going through sometimes severe psychological and physiological (well - “sensorium disarray” were my words) stress and torture.
The GP doctor wrote down “unable to work due to stress related illness”
And now I get a letter from the DLA (disability living allowance) saying they’ve made their decision:
“You can...
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People speaking...
Eternal existence is a weird concept…
Is creation a paedophile?
These 2 phrases uttered as a human… quite a strange little art piece these lives
Oh yeah - by art I mean.. life is a weird cinema-type art piece
I meant life here… existence is different
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Haven't thought to post this.. and it is quite...
One of the persona’s that has been around my mind space - doing stunts and speaking has kept laughing on about how fucked up Earth is.
It speaks about how gods excuse for all suffering and terrible things in human lives is the fact that it all transpires. The fact that it ends makes it OK to do.
Makes sense yes? We die… so it isn’t bad really… it isn’t that real. No...
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Lack of Nakedness & Mirth amongt humans
Surely this is one sign of infertility.
Anyhow I have 5mg of Etizolam and 3 grams of mxe. And I cannot do social things until I am well because it could be so bad… been like this since just before December now. “Manhood charm” says the woman voice - I do hope it is a good man hood charm and it doesn’t make me too tall. Transpiring time like this is so bad…...
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Simple prescription to poor politics
Some sort of way of working this place which makes people intelligent and sane and healthy. I mean - the oversoul does it all through individuals - this mass picture of weird chaos called society. But please tell me that what I write below IS apparently pretty obviously desirable: So there is so many new-agers and zeitgeist people and drug-liberty/conscious liberty people. Smart people realizing...
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Internets existence signifies an internet of souls...
So much easier to speak about metaphysics when you’ve witnessed magic. God done weird things with my organism… mega-health… the ability to understand complex ideas without words from no where… and also extreme terrorism - like making my cigarettes embers never go out and burn through my shoe etc… all the while displaying an array of persona’s within my...
aquariuslove07 asked: Why Scorpio? (Scorpio Bitch) Or are you referring to your Sun sign and its influence of conflictual Ideas? lol
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Voices in my entrapment field (mind) say that...
obituary is due soon. If it was true… I would hope it said that nobody truly knew me… and that all false pretence added to my name would be disrespected by me. No one has seen enough synchronicity or truth to know me.
I hope it’s not true. Upon my psychic completion (as much as possible within this type of human consciousness) I have been made ill. If I die now… the...
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“A good trip:
Sex: Male
Weight: 200 lbs
One morning when I had consumed two...”
– A man who self medicated with 1g of DXM a day for a while for his panic disorder
http://www.erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=66438
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Thing from a guy - such stuff happens and Govt...
mysoulstayschemical:
DJ I just let snort 20mgs of 2c-e just typed this on my computer: “when methapthor ecome arput smply”
“Enlightenment is always through surrender, but surrender is achieved through...”
– Osho - mistaken he was…. after Enlightenment - a human may want a control panel for his mind and body which surpasses his current state… and he could by-god be granted such a thing. But to see that you are going through an experience machine… and you are but a passer-by picking up...
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Gnosis. Ego as an absurd joke in nature....
All things on Earth are simple. It exists. Death & the rest of everything else is of interest for it is not known and yet obviously linked to us. If you are clever enough to know Earth as I do… and are liberated… if you can choose to explore the world… express things and have security (food & shelter guarantee)… your luckier than me.
Causality - Everything is...
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“Holier than Tao art thou”
– To those on Earth who know the misanthropy of Tao (God around here).
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Momentum as seen
I may be partaking in -£250 debt in order to reign as one of the first 25C-NBOMe suppliers in the UK.
If this Chinese chemical factory actually sends me this 1g of 25C-NBOMe. It can be split into 2000 or 3000 doses which sounds insane to me..
Especially during a shamanic illness… what is this? The revival of LSD? Some synchronistic chance of the re-occurrence of a cheap extremely low dose...
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A quote from a supposed being on bluelight
“dmt mxe combo. might need to get the dmt bit sorted first. i tried brewing up some ” ahyaska” a couple of years back but the shit went severely wrong somehow. i downed about 2 pints of this stuff that was like 10 X a vinegar san pedro and only barely made it off baseline. hard fuckin times man.”
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Nature & God & Our Experience as Humans
Nature, God & our Experience
Nature seems to create one time-pathway for this planet which we go through. In this pathway such beings have come about, which are regulated as such by nature so to be exactly as they are up to & upon death. Humans are experience machines. From what I’ve experienced in youth & from observations it is somehow clear that we do associate the pre-determined...
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Methoxetamine
If it is an opiate and a dissociative. Surely it is Jesus Christ’s Savour?
Jesus Christ seems to have had lots of pain and a sense of self. Jesus did not claim to be god.
Everything is obviously god. “Allah” means “All of” ah = of in Scottish.
“A’l have a bit ah that” or “I’ll have a bit of that”
“Allah” is God. God...
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I'm back on Tumblr - methoxetamine ban
But still got my illness… may as well keep posting … does add a wee connection to my life.
Something has come to mind. Methoxetamine. If it were to replace serotonin as a neurotransmitter - we would live a pain-free and disassociated life. MxE would have saved Jesus Christ on the cross from pain and association with his own existence . MXE IS THE MESSIAH NEUROTRANSMITTER.
God uses me...
