Most television I've watched in a while
Some program about eco systems and machines was quite surprising… good thought food. The news makes me feel like I can achieve anything. If these melancholy, disenchanted, fat, balding ‘experts’ can get on the news and have a sound income then so can I… In other news the plants are yellowing whilst budding… very worrying… Ordered 15g of iboga… £40!...
Broke through to a greater degree on DMT
It removed me from my body, showed me that being an ethereal spirit is very possible. As I spun around aimlessly in this realm of absurdly intense patterning and electronic sounds, much like dreams I have had and ayahuasca experiences, I realised the joy of having a body. Strict cut-out-points in our senses and our immediate experiential horizon seem to me a blessing now. Long times have I...
theprocrastinationproject asked: you unfollowed me :p cheers
Really unfortunate when
you sexually abstain for 2 weeks for Ayahuasca and then you have a wet dream the morning of the day your meant to be drinking her… least I’m not so easily excitable now.
Ransom Notes: Enjoy Your Symptom! →
beenheremanytimesbefore: “Does not the recent trend of “-cam” web-sites which realize the logic of “The Truman Show” (in these sites, we are able to follow continuously some event or place: the life of a person in his/her apartment, the view on a street, etc.) display this same urgent need for the fantasmatic Other’s Gaze serving as the guarantee of the subject’s being? “I exist only...
The ego is always looking for some trouble. Why? Because if nobody pays...– Ego - The False Center (via bouncingbabyuniverse)
Ignorance is not Bliss
Ignorance can last forever. No bliss can.
God Query Dilemma
I always ask again before attending a task at work, to make sure I’m doing the right task… a simple enough query can be made to assure my self correctness. It’s coming to this time though, at the brink of adulthood where I must assure myself of what I should be doing in general. Between myself and the DMT overlords, I have no one to truly assure me of this general action, the...
Shame how hopeless many become
Given to waste. Basking in waste, in fact. Why? If true joy hasn’t been felt. Then we can hardly aim toward it. Pity, pity, pity…
Not to fool thyself
Looking back 3 or 4 years, as an 18 year old, you’ll probably have this mild “ugghh can’t believe I was like that” feeling. In 10 years, you’ll look back at now and feel slightly similar… so I realise now I should say little and assure myself of nothing…
Malnourished Nation of Fat Cunts →
My head hurts from thinking of humans. We don’t understand health, and many of us actually shun the idea of becoming health conscious as something pretentious… it’s ridiculous. Doctors don’t care about diet, patients don’t care about diet - it’s all pharma companies punting shite for lots of money and food producers making pointless food, nutrient deficient to...
Watermelons explode in China as farmers apply too...
Beyond melamine in the powdered milk and plastic in the rice, Chinese farmers have managed to achieve a little more food history with a new chemical monstrosity: Exploding watermelons. This was accomplished by applying a chemical growth promoter to the melons. A day later, one farmer saw 180 watermelons explode. Other farmers lost up to two-thirds of their watermelon crops as the melons...
3 Shifts :|
I have a shift Friday, Saturday, Sunday next week… never had do deal with that before - and they’re all 7 hours. I’m so fragile at the moment I don’t think it can be dealt with. Hopefully I can work myself into undefeatability mode by then… In about two months, no more work though. Actually, it’s pretty pathetic that I get worked up over such things - the...
breathefever-deactivated2011080 asked: Thank you for your support, love. <3 And I know where your coming from with the weed-induced horror-epiphanies. I've never heard anyone talk about them before, though.
Blight of the internet on the psyche
I feel I’ve observed so much neurosis caused by the internet. On some of the people I follow… folk on facebook…. myself at some points. It manages to fool the ego and fuels self preservation. Many people liking certain statuses or posts might not entail that the poster is getting somewhere - but it will encourage that same behaviour so to consistently receive the same...
consideration on drug-related vocabulary and...
Stolen from http://www.shroomery.org/forums/showflat.php/Cat/0/Number/8523928 In the 1950s, two linguists, Edward Sapir and Benjamin Lee Whorf, brought the so called Sapir-Whorf hypothesis, which says that thought is determined by language. For these two linguists, the lack of a certain word in a specific language, for example, will imply in the lack of possibility for the speakers of that...
It does not get to me
it’s not the kind of thing that I like
Exile Nation, War on Drugs film →
About to watch this to start my straight edge period. Feel that to actually verify my current lifestyle as sound, I should try to go edge for a bit… it will make trips more special again. And it’ll be interesting seeing as I’ve never went a week without at least some kind of intoxication… maybe even 2 or 3 days… so after this fag and film - I’M GOING FOR IT
californiabeachparty-deactivate asked: sorry for being scared of everything :( there's always aliens and things moving and making noises and trying to kill me everywhere i go when it's dark, dark quiet places are the worst places ever.... and i always have to think of songs that are pleasant or else i'd probably cry cos it's scary, there's a ghost in my attic sometimes and there used to be a ghost in the room i...
would anyone like to drink some syrian rue tea tonight? of course not you’ll be drunk, and there’s not enough sugar and additives in rue for you
The state of health in the west →
Basically - we think of modern society as advanced… we apparently surpass past generations in our understanding of things and generally we pat ourselves on the back. One thing we’ve lost unwittingly is our health… industrial processing has put tonnes of artificial chemicals into our diets. We are getting less sun and exercise from sitting in. Sugar is in everything. Money hungry...
Feelin pretty cut-off
Since the DMT-Nexus DoS attack… it’s basically a support group for anyone who’s seen the chrysanthemum inside their being open up and could never escape the implications of it. If I had someone in RL to surf inner space with - things would be a lot better for me.
californiabeachparty-deactivate asked: i put '/ask' after yr url :)
californiabeachparty-deactivate asked: also, yr background is nice :)
californiabeachparty-deactivate asked: do yr post on facebook!!! yr posts aren't ignorant or racist or sexist or offensive or anything bad like that
Wonder how many of our internet track marks will be left on facebook in many a years time. Lot’s of us might be able to track ourselves through photos and status updates from age 30 back until 13… the transformation! What is a status update really though? You can only really say when you look back in 10 years time what it really was. Facebook’s an extension of ourselves, a...